Sunday, July 12, 2009 @ 9:04 PM
Home with the Right Love
Today's service really spoke to me deep, in the service i kinda started to tear abit.
i felt quite real as it spoke of love but in the tone that people speak it in nowadays. i thought it might speak deep into my parents and well change the way they threat me?(btw my parents are non-believers)
Parents tend to be very materialistic and cherish Things more than their Children. They show Love to Things more than we Kids. they can don't expect from what they have but they expect the best from us. We grow up as kids seeking Love from our parents like baby crying for milk, but as the years pass by those Love treatments seem to decrease till finally none are give out. Parents start to have high expectation of us & prices start to flash across our heads. we fight for value, wanting to be the best so that we can be looked up by our parents. But when we are not of much value, they compare us to others who are better than us, making us feel like their love is conditional, using "Motivation for us" as an excuse.

Home slowly turn into a place where we sleep & love will be found on the inside.
Many people smoked, have pre-marital sex, have a tattoo, drink or join gangs because those activity somehow give them an identity
i admit I've once fallen into a relationship and turned to drinking & pornography to fill the voidness inside but it's was temporal, but at that point of time, that was my Only source, my mum & dad seldom shows me love and whenever i show my dad my result, no matter how good i am, he will still say it's not good enough. i sometimes do fear going home despite knowing that i wont be scolded but rather because i know I'll never be good enough for my dad
but at least i know something, no matter how bad i am at something, Daddy will still be there for me with his unconditional love ready to accept me no matter how much i've fallen short
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